At that moment when she asked me
to step down for someone else, my whole trust and faith just came crushing
down. I have never thought even for a second that someone in that position will
have the audacity to do such pitiful thing and that too from her, someone that I
have looked upon, someone whom I thought of as my mentor, source of inspiration
and above all whom I so blindly trusted.
I accepted as she desired but it
broke me down…pushed me to the dungeon where I found no escape. I literally
cried for about three months, hiding in the corner of the office, thinking what
I have done so wrong to be treated like that.
Stepping down wasn’t the problem,
I wouldn’t have cared that much but to have my trust and faith broken by the
person I so admired and looked upon shook me to the core. Perhaps I may never learn
to trust again or have any faith or expectation from just anyone. I felt sorry
for myself for having worked so hard. I wished only if I had not dedicated and
committed like that to my work. I felt ashamed to face myself. And then I made the decision to leave ….
I told her what I must and what I
felt. I knew things weren’t going to be that easy and I was ready to face the
consequences. All throughout my career I served with full dedication and commitment.
I love my work so much that even a dark spot on it I cannot tolerate. And I couldn’t
just let my dedication, hard work, integrity and work ethic to be torn that
way. I thought wherever I go I will serve with the same spirit but may be the
time to serve in that place has definitely come to an end…. And so, I left…. heartbroken,
spirit torn apart, motivation at zero level.
But I knew that God will always
have a better plan for me for he has always appeared to help when I needed the
most….
