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The Pride

One of the perks of studying outside our own country is to learn about other countries culture and tradition.  As I learn more about them I came to know that we have different culture and tradition which define who we are. When we meet foreigner we start to talk which is mostly initiated  by my other Bhutanese friends from our side  since I am a girl of few words and socializing was never a piece of cake for me.  Well I am trying to socialize with people and I think I am improving gradually.
Most of the people from European country do not have any idea about Bhutan. One of my friend from Germany said “who would have thought that a small country with less than a million people exist between two giant countries India and China.” Another girl from Korean said “I heard that you have king just like fairy tales.” She was so excited about it.  One of a girl from Taiwan said “I read that Bhutan is the happiest country, are you all happy?”  One day my Erasmus buddy asked me “Was Bhutan under so…


The primary aim we have when we join any institution is to get a degree or diploma certificate. No one would want to go to institution if those certificates are not provided.  We go to attend lecture to catch up with the attendance shortage or it is mandatory for everyone to attend class or sometime we genuinely want to learn something; something which we cannot get outside the four walls of institution. There may be other firms where they can provide some lecture but it will be difficult to find all sets of things we need in one place.  So institution is a grooming place to provide certificate to our bright near future provided we have done all the necessary preparation and fulfilled the requirement.
Though the primary aim of the institution is to provide a gateway to a professional life, it does take up the responsibility to cultivate values that we need in our everyday life. The values may not be taught as a separate module or it will not be pasted in notice board or a lecturer may …


Dear 2014, It has been a tough journey right?  So many things have happened over the past 11 and half month approximately. You have been harsh on me when the year started. Everything fell apart and you made me to weep days and days. There was time when I had to lie down because it was too painful to absorb everything. There wasn’t rage nor anger but only pain. Sometime I felt like the essence of life that is hope is draining away from me. Despite of all that things I thought if only just for once if you could listen to my unsaid words.  I cried in silence and wept in despair but you turned blind eye to me. I felt like I was buried alive because my voice failed to reach you. And I wondered for the first time if things will ever be okay again.
I didn’t know why you made me to go through such things but with shaken faith I still believed you. I knew you would not let me go through such things for long. Then one day you gave me the option to start over. I was confused, scared but I knew …

It is okay

When life bestows you with sadness, It is okay my dear to feel the pain For we should know the  essence of life To feel everything be it pain
When life turns its back on to you It is okay to be frustrated sometime Cry it out loud if you must Because not all are strong enough to bear it
When the goal seems miles away With no direction or clue to get towards it It is okay my dear to rest for a while Resume your journey when your head is cleared.
And when sunshine appears in your life It is okay my dear to embrace it fully Celebrate, express and feel it Don’t hesitate or fear of what might happen next
Life is but a series of journey So make it beautiful if you can If not accept it as it is Coz sometime things are better as they are

Be true to yourself

There comes a time in our life when we really want to do something or feel something. But somehow we are scared that something wrong might happen and we back off. People say take risk or fly off the comfort zone. But does it really penetrate into our minds or is it just empty words barking at us. Despite of reading inspiration quotes first thing in the morning for more than a month now the only thought I have in my mind is am I running after a wild goose chase or am I missing out something?
Sometime I run out of words and even opinions. Sometime I even don’t know what is good or bad or right or wrong. Everything that is happening becomes acceptable that sometime I wonder what is happening to me.   Am I too scared to be judged by others if I say something?  If we pour out our disappointment then someone would definitely say not to give a shit about it. But are we really strong that way, are we tough inside out?  Do we not really care when others pass judgment to us? Or do we pretend t…

“Staro Riga 2014”

“Staro Riga 2014” Festival of light is a part of Riga carnival which stands for happiness and change.  It is scheduled for five evening from 14 to 18 of November 2014. It presents the idea of transformation and lighting up of the city, building, windows and façade. It tries to provide people with the feeling of adventure, exploration and discovery.
 I was excited when friends told me that the city looked so beautiful. So not wasting much time me and my apartment mates headed to the city. When I entered the city I felt like I was entering into a different realm. Riga is not a big city, but it is a beautiful one even during the day light. At night when the city is decorated with lights the view is splendid. There was showcase of the work by various artists from Latvia, Lithuania, France, Portugal etc showing their globally acclaimed work during light festival. I don’t know how other people felt but I was so amazed. I started to think what would we do if there was not greatest invention l…

Flickering light

She stood there for a longer time Gazing at the closed door before her Not knowing whether to turn back or wait further But there was no signal of light from the other
She debated with herself several times  Pretended it will be ok to wait for sometime Despite the fact that there wasn’t anything left And whenever she was reminded about it she wept
In fear and confusion she walked away finally With a final gaze at the closed door sadly It was scary for her in the beginning  Has got used to see her hopes draining
 Time strolled slowly for her but for a while As she adjusted to her new welcoming life The flickering light grew brighter with each passing days And she could not help it but to be in gay
There was twinkle in her once sad eyes Music on her once forgotten song And in the rain she danced openly Enjoying every moment of her life fully
And I stood there speechlessly Feeling happy for my friend ceaselessly And relaxed did I walk away leaving a note That said enjoy my poem from t…

Energy efficient construction

The population of the earth is approximately 7 billion at present.  It is estimated that it will double every after 60 years [3].  With the number of inhabitants increasing there is more demand for energy to provide comfortable and suitable living standard. On the other hand the primary source of energy such as oil and natural gas are limited and are at the verge of depleting.  Many have forecasted the time when it might happen but it is sure that it will happen in the near foreseeable future [3]. In some parts of the world like Bhutan a very small country where the oil and natural gas are imported from outside, the prices of these resources has been increasing annually. This indicates that the demand is more while the supply is less which leads to increase in price.
Due to the excessive or inefficient use of energy, there is emission of green house gases. It was found out that energy consumption alone in the residential building accounts for about 70% of global carbon dioxide emission…


Sometime when life gets harder I will be there for you my brother Like the forever and always promise We shall stand together for days to come
Sadness is a part and parcel of life But with your criticism and humor  I forget to dwell in it sometime For you make me laugh like never before

We played pranks, laughed and cried  Hide and took blame for each other’s mistake  Saving from mother’s thunderous scolding For it will prick you right in the core of heart
You took responsibility at such a tender age I felt deeply sorry as you had to sacrifice a lot But never did you made us feel anything Such a selfless and kind person you are

 Though you appear merry and gay outside I know deep down sadness lurks in you Because we have listened to our Walter mitty thought. And I pray sincerely because you deserve a lot.

Trip to Estonia and Finland

It has been almost two months since I was here in Latvia. I didn’t go out much because of my love to stay in my apartment or if I put it other way round, my laziness to go out.  So when my other Erasmus friend from Nepal and Germany came up with the plan of visiting Estonia and Finland, my laziness evaporated. I agreed to join with them after discussing with my other Bhutanese friend here.  So on 10th October 2014 we took a bus from central station, Riga at around 2 pm in the afternoon. We nearly missed the bus as our bus from the dormitory got late. We had to run to central station after bus dropped us at local bus terminal and it was such a funny sight to see all eleven of us running. People were literally staring at us. I just could not help laughing.
After 4 and half hours ride, we finally arrived in Tallinn the capital city of Estonia. We stayed in a hostel as it was much cheaper for us. We didn’t have much difficulty in finding one as the organizer has already inquired well abo…

A beautiful dream

Sometime life does not turn out to be the way we want but somehow we hope that someday it will be alright. We hope that someday we will be able to see the light flickering at the end of the tunnel.  But if not we can always dream about it and somehow it get fulfilled in some way.
As I got back home, I saw my mother weaving in the living room like always. Father was talking about his work to mother. I looked at them alarmed, giving them a confused look. It has been years since they got separated. There was calm expression on mother’s face as if everything was okey. Father grinned at me and said that they got back together.  I know I am not a kid anymore; matured enough to take my own responsibilities. I do know how to take care of myself and the people around me. But sometime I wish to see my parents together. I am still their child no matter how old I get. During their separation I could not grieve openly also. I thought their separation was best for them. If they don’t find happines…

Empty pages

She stood there for a long time She had the choice she ever wanted To stare at  the vastness of ocean Fill that vastness with her thoughts And let it sink deep into it Forever left to be forgotten She picked up her book and pen Tried to spit out thoughts she dare not to think But words failed to describe those thoughts Everything felt right at that moment Everything felt at its own place Nothing seem wrong nor bad Staring at the calmness of the ocean A feeling of tranquility swept over her As if the vastness of ocean heard her unspoken words She tried to scribble her thoughts again Was confused to feel at peace after so long But she failed to give justice to those thoughts again She looked at her empty pages worried  But gentle breeze from ocean reminded her of their presence And she knew they have read her empty pages And somehow the ocean took away her loads. And calmness crept into her again.

Far away home

To the far away home To the far away home I stare And I stare with confusion There are people whom I love And there are people whom I care But in the midst of people I love and care There are people who scare me Sometime the reminder of that pain Pricks me and I never want to face it again Because I know I am too weak to face it again But I belong to that far away land The land which has given me so much The home which has always blessed me The friendship which has kept me going I owe them more than words can ever describe In this unknown land I reside now I feel neither pain nor the happiness And I enjoy this feeling of indifference But I question myself Am I really living? So I stare again to that far away home both with fear and love

Greeting from LATVIA

The Turkish airlines after almost 10 hours finally dropped us in the Riga air port leaving us in a place we never thought we would visit one day. We were welcomed with the cool breeze and all I could remember of telling my friend was “it is colder than Bhutan.” Unfortunately my friend lost her baggage and we had to report to the concerned authority. They helped us to file the complain and assured us that they would deliver the luggage to our apartment as soon as they get it. Our Erasmus buddy Inga and Laura, Latvian student who studies in Riga Technical University came to receive us. They had waited about three hours for us since we had mistaken the time of arrival. They helped us with everything and they were always there when we needed them. I don’t know how I can ever thank them for the help they rendered us. I have always loved to live in a quiet place and sometime my mother use to tell me that I should settle in some goenpa where I can be free from the noise of the people, honking…

Just a scene

She stole a look at him and he was there in his best black gho looking charming as ever. She pretended as if it didn’t affect her. He was concentrating hard in his physics class. She stole another look at him. It was advantage on her side since he use to sit in the first bench. He hardly talks with her and she tries hard to suppress her feelings for him. It’s just a swaying feeling she thought. He walks in front of her and she laughs thinking “weird guy have different walking style.” He halts and turns around to ask her friend for the physics practical note book. She acts as if she hadn’t notice him and pretends to be absorbed in her thought. “Why he didn’t ask my book” she heard herself talking to herself. “I did all the calculation and report and my friend just copied from me and he asks her instead of me. What is so wrong with me?” Another conversation with herself
There was a practical class and in the group of four he wasn’t there. Her friend tells her that he is not showing up fo…

Journey to Exchange program

At some point in life I feel that though I may not have everything that I desire, I do have everything that I need. A day before my departure to Latvia for the exchange program, I felt so heavy inside. I told myself several times that I will be just gone for about a year. I can’t show my weakness to my family member because I know they will be worried more than me. I never wanted to give my family member any trouble or worry. They deserve to be happy and I just can’t bear to see them unhappy because of me. But that was one part of the story.  I was worried about my mother as she usually gets sick when she is not happy. She never wanted to send me away from her. when I told her about my view on applying for the exchange program she said” I am not educated like you, I don’t know what is good or bad for you when it comes to your education but sending you away frets me out.”  I didn’t say anything though I had a bunch of reason for applying for the exchange program. Somehow nobody in the f…

down the memory lane

Life is a series of memories which makes us both laugh and cry. We never know what is going to happen next but we can always cherish those beautiful memories. My father was an army so we use to reside in Dechencholing army camp in Thimphu. My two best friend’s ( Sangay Wangmo and Sonam Dekar ) father was also army and our houses were nearby.  Our routine will be almost same. S.Dekar was my next door neighbor and we use to do almost all things together like doing dishes outside in the sun, preparing curry for lunch, washing clothes etc.  Sangay was very fond of swimming back then, she knows most of the swimming style and she would demonstrate to me when I accompany her to the swimming. There was not a swimming pool stadium in Dechencholing nor did we have the privilege to visit the only swimming pool in Thimphu town. So our only option was to swim in the river few meters away from our residential.  Most of the time S.dekar mother‘s won’t allow her to go with us because of the fear that …


There was always something in my life which drew my attention or interest. These things would keep me engaged and helps me to forget things which prick me. Somehow I use to escape from the things which I was not prepared to accept. But not lately, I want to engage myself in some work but there seems to be no interest. No matter how hard I try I land up doing nothing.  I feel lethargic and emptiness crawls inside me. I just sit in my room trying to sleep or trying to read something but I find no joy in it. I never felt like this before. I was either sad or happy or normal but not feeling less. I wonder why? Since I have one and half month vacation before I leave for my exchange program in Latvia, my mother asked me to give tuition to my friend’s sister. I thought it was the best way to kill my boredom and enthusiastically I agreed. I always wanted to become a teacher and teaching use to give me immense pleasure. I had given tuition before also and I never remember becoming bored in the …


As I sat there building castle in the air, my friend walked into my room unannounced.  She looked at me but didn’t utter a word and sat beside me. She looked tired as if she has just returned from the long fought battle and her rueful expression indicated that the outcome was not in her favor.  She took a deep breath and said “Can I sleep on your lap?” The atmosphere in the room got tense and I wondered what was going inside that sunken tired person. I nodded and she placed her head on my lap. I didn’t have the guts to ask her any question since she seemed too fragile to answer any queries. She closed her eyes and I sat there staring at her. “Are you all right dear?” I uttered at last since my head was at the verge of explosion with questions.” Shhhh no question please” She pleaded. I pat her head and then hugged her. Tears trickled down her pale face and deep down I knew that she is still feeling that chill she is not suppose to feel. She squeezed my hand and was struggling to sleep …


She walks with her head held high For she believe her heart is send for mend She smiles with the people around For she is a strong girl people think But when night grows older When she cocoons alone in her room Does she cry for the heaviness inside And  when the dawn breaks again She puts that pretentious face of happiness For she has to be happy for people who cares her But  scar runs down  too deep to heal She dare not to share the dream Those dream which made her happy once She has build a chamber around her And in it she dwells now Her trust over the life is shaken But not her faith over the god Even when her only aim shattered  Her faith was not broken And she is determined not to let it happen She waits for the answer For she knows it will take time But god shall answer her eventually
For letting things happen she was not prepared for…

Mundane life

She picked up the book that her friend gave and sat on the window sill with a coffee in one hand. The weather has turned gloomy and that gave her a bit of happiness. She love watching rain falling and as expected it started to drizzle. She tried to read the book but somehow her mind didn’t cooperate. It wandered off like any other day bringing a lot of unanswered question. Taking up the responsibility of the family has always been something she was scared of back in college.  She wanted to be care free, wander off to different places and do stuff that she like. She didn’t want to depend on other nor did she want to settle down like some of her friend did. And it reminded her of the discussion she use to have with her friend back in college. “Life is so mundane; right after college we will be searching for a job for survival, after that we will settle down and then will be getting married. After marriage we will be raising kids and there will be lots of things pressuring us. We will be …