At some point in life I feel that though I
may not have everything that I desire, I do have everything that I need. A day
before my departure to Latvia for the exchange program, I felt so heavy inside.
I told myself several times that I will be just gone for about a year. I can’t show my weakness to my family member
because I know they will be worried more than me. I never wanted to give my
family member any trouble or worry. They deserve to be happy and I just can’t
bear to see them unhappy because of me. But that was one part of the story.
I was worried about my mother as she usually
gets sick when she is not happy. She never wanted to send me away from her.
when I told her about my view on applying for the exchange program she said” I
am not educated like you, I don’t know what is good or bad for you when it
comes to your education but sending you away frets me out.” I didn’t say anything though I had a bunch of
reason for applying for the exchange program. Somehow nobody in the family
wanted me to go. So I told my family members that I am not applying anymore and
I left for my college. There were about seven projects under which we can apply
for the exchange program. I saw opportunity slipping from my hand easily and I
was not happy. I have always obeyed to my family member for the decision they
have taken for me so far. Mother didn’t want
to send me away as she was worried that something might happen to me and she
might lose me. Others didn’t encourage me as I will be losing a year.
And one day something boosted me up
and I had the strongest reason to apply for the exchange. I thought it’s now or
never. So I called my brother not to discuss but to inform him that I was
applying. He told me that I have every
right to make my own decision and he also knew that I was not going to change
it even if he says something. So I
applied for it and believe me I put my heart and soul in the project I applied
for the exchange program. I didn’t seek much help from other because I knew
that was my journey and I am entirely responsible for it. But without the grace of the god I would not
have achieved though. Before the result
came my roommate asked me” what if you get selected, will you go?” I thought
and after a while the only answer was “I don’t know, I applied because I don’t want
to regret for the rest of my life for loosing such opportunity but If mother
becomes sad, I don’t know what I will do.”
My family member gradually
accepted my decision and when I got selected they had mixed feeling. I was worried that mother would be sad but by
the time I got home for summer vacation after 4 months she was happy. Everyone was
actually happy for me.
When the day of departure came
the only thought I had on my mind was “why did I apply?” I wanted to be with my
family and friends and leaving the known shore seemed scary for me. My two
eldest brother said “don’t worry about mother, she will be fine and don’t worry
about anything here. Enjoy your life and
take care of your health.” My two brothers have always stood by my side whenever
I needed someone ever since my parents got divorced. They have been my source
of strength and only living being whom I trust. Like always I told them that I would
be fine and I left them behind in pursuit of something I don’t yet know.
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