“What is your
ambition?” perhaps this is the question asked to every student when we were in
primary school. Whenever a new teacher comes to the class they will ask us to
introduce and tell our ambition. I guess I was in class 2 when that question
was asked for the first time. Well I don’t remember clearly who the teacher was
though. Back then most of us only knew three professions namely doctor, engineer
and teacher. About three fourth of the class would want to become teacher
including me. I only wanted to become teacher that time because I would see my
teacher eating snacks in front of us in the class and I thought being a teacher
you can get all delicious snacks to eat…well only one or two teacher did like
that …sorry to those who felt offended.
So what I was saying
was as I got upgraded my profession kept on changing. When I was in grade 9 or
10, I wanted to become Doctor Pathologist particularly. May be that was because
CID an Indian series was famous that time and I use to see doctors examining
dead bodies and trying to determine the cause of death. I thought being a
pathologist I will get to work in lab without having to interact with people
which I use to hate. I found all those
experiments done to diagnose very attractive. Even biology was easy up to grade
10 that I thought I can actually become a doctor after being a subject topper.
But then that dream was soon broken when I saw thick biology text book for
class XI and XII. Forget about becoming a doctor, I even skipped my trial
biology exam and my biology teacher started calling me neurosis… Almost
everyone I knew didn’t expect that from me. Later they told me that I was very
bold, which I had to be because I had not prepared for exam and I was sure I
will fail.
So that was the
end of becoming a doctor and then suddenly I wanted to become Software
Engineer. That was because some people
told me that we will get very good salary and will always be placed in urban
areas. So I thought why not become a
software Engineer. But then that dream was also broken when I didn’t see
Software Engineer slot on the scholarship list. Being from a middle class
family, my parents won’t be able to send me privately and that day only did I
realize the difference between rich and poor. Rich kids no matter how bad they
perform in the exam, can always purse their dream unlike me.
So at the end I
decided to go for teaching profession. My friends use to say that I can become
a very good teacher if I become one. I don’t know how far that is true…they might
have said that may be because I did like teaching them. So I thought I will
pursue Honors in Physics. I have always loved physics…forces, loads, friction
everything about physics use to be beautiful. Unlike biology my love for
physics never deteriorated. But then
that too I could not pursue because my family wanted me to become
Engineer. So somehow I landed up being
a Civil Engineer finally.
But then if
physics was a kid, civil Engineer would be his other family member. Civil
Engineering is the higher version of Physics. I don’t know how to describe ….very
few vocabulary..what to do technical students aren’t good in English…..I didn’t
say that, one of my lecturer did but I don’t know how true it is for other but
it seems to be true in my case. I have
started to love this profession as I graduated gradually. And today after 8
month practicing engineering, this field still amazes me….
Some people feel
pity on me when I return from the site with a big file on one hand and my hand
bag filled with 5 m measurement tape, 30 m measurement tape, a note pad, pen,
charger, headphone …you can find almost everything in my hand bag except
cosmetics. They use to tell that a girl should not be a civil engineer…handling
site is not meant for girls. I give them a very big grin and say” it is not
that bad like you imagine, I actually enjoy being at site rather than staring
at the computer screen whole day”.
Until next time
take care and thank you for going through.
